Musical hallucinations are rare. I have been working in the hearing aid business since 1986. As far as I know, I have never heard of it, nor have I had a patient with it. So when I started to suffer from musical illusions two years ago, I had to look up and see what it was. It turns out that even an expert is not sure, but I will call it a special form of tinnitus.
What is tinnitus?
Tinnitus is a sound that feels no physical source; no mechanical vibrations pass through the auditory system, but the tinnitus victim hears nothing.
Most people have tinnitus in one form or another. A loud voice, such as a bursting balloon that is too close to the ear, a violent blow to the head, or too much coffee can cause the ear to "sound" briefly, which is tinnitus. Many people with hearing loss are also accompanied by tinnitus. It sounds like loud, sly, steam, yes, sometimes even music.
Musical illusion
I hear normal hearing at once, until the virus, autoimmune disease or event, the doctor really does not know which one, reducing my hearing to about 25% of the normal value. Coupled with the small events of a few years ago, I began to hear the music in my mind.
Music begins as a specific song that is played over and over again. Although I recognized this song, I still can't say exactly what it is. I think this is a song from the 1960s, without any language, just a lower-range instrument version. That is the default song that has endured from that day.
In the first month or so, the concert changes songs every day, and I will never know what songs I will hear. However, ultimately and inevitably, usually at the end of the day, the song always returns to that default song.
Although sometimes annoying, the music is not terrible. In fact, I don't mind it. Except for the song being too short and repeated, it may be repeated 10 seconds before, if I remember more of the song, it will be longer.
Consistent with the music in my mind, I lost the ability to hear real music. Whenever real music is played, whether it's recording or live, it sounds like a boast, a boast, a horn, and they are used by adults to talk about cartoon movies, Peanuts.
Now, after two years of continuous musical illusion, they are not so prominent, or I just learned to manage them. They are not like a real song, it is more like a song stuck in my mind. And I can change this song when I really want it, focusing on the songs I like instead of the ones that are playing.
At the moment of writing this article, music playback is a song from the Beatles white album called Martha My Dear. Unlike the default song, this song has words; I was heard in my 70s when I was a teenager. This is not my favorite song, I prefer something else, but it does exist. I can change it, but it takes time and effort, and I have other things to do.
Music is very easy to be hinted at. That is to say, usually if something reminds me of a song, the new tunes will immediately become songs in my mind, usually lasting for a few days. Therefore, I have to be wary not to let a song that I don't like to enter the next uncertain time where I have to endure.
What should I do?
In the hearing aid business, I can use the tinnitus masks built into the hearing aids, which may be helpful unless they are not loud enough to reach my hearing loss level. There are tinnitus clinics, but the musical hallucinations are not enough for me to seek their help. I just put up with it.
Although the music never stops even when I sleep, I can ignore it, or at least burn it behind and continue my life. I heard that tinnitus has caused some people to commit suicide, but for me, this is just a loud annoyance. What's even worse is that music doesn't interfere with communication, it's not hurt like other diseases, and now I can't hear real music, so this is the only music I get.
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