I am here to tell you one of the darkest periods of my life, a terrible few months, I never thought I could overcome. The tragedy of accidental death. In fact, I am able to get rid of that mental state and move forward, which is enough for me to tell you that you can. In order to understand why I feel my way, I will have to go back.
How did it start?
It happened three years ago. My cousin went to a concert with me. We wanted to see places outside the three counties. We took his mother's car. I am 19 years old and 18 years old. This is the farthest place we have left unsupervised. The good news is that we are what you call good kids, so our parents have no real problems in our places so far.
The good news is that the concert is great, but it is a little later than we thought. By then, the two of us have been awake for about fifteen or sixteen hours. We should find a place to sleep - even if the truck stops - but we don't. I told my cousin that I would take part in the first driving and he could sleep, but he suggested the first shift. At some point we ran out. We drove in the car and when the nurse tried to get him to leave, he died there. I only have some bruises.
Shipwreck
Death is unexpected, and it feels like it is my fault. Why am I still alive? I should be the one who drives. If it is me, I will die. Or maybe I don't have an accident at all. When I was recovering from the hospital, I had all these ideas and more ideas were spinning in my mind. They call it the guilt of survivors. No matter what the name is, I feel bad, and I have been replaying those activities. I didn't go to my cousin's funeral because I felt embarrassed, even though I told people it was because I still felt pain because of the accident. I don't think these feelings will disappear. I killed my cousin is the only thought in my mind, it dragged me to a very dark place.
move forward
My family saw emotional and spiritual things happening, and I even stopped taking care of myself. They stepped in and provided me with the help I needed. They assured me that although it was terrible, it was not my fault. I won't lie but say that I just pulled it out. It takes time. The key is that I did get out of that kind of depression. The good news is that no matter how bad and bleak it looks, you can overcome the frustration you feel. It's hard to die accidentally, you will be angry with this situation like me. With love, guidance and positive feelings, you can get through the storm.
Orignal From: Unfair death
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